It's amazing what time and Jebus can do.

I'm two weeks into this tour and it has been a whirlwind this entire time. Last week was really difficult, I did not want to leave LA, but I needed this money. I felt like a flag being whipped around a pole; I didn't know where I was going to live, when I would get paid and I generally just didn't feel at home anywhere I went. I'm starting to get into my groove, I'm actually living across the Bay but I really like the drive, I like the Bay Bridge, it's a relaxing drive home. And I'm making up for my lack of a social life in LA. The girls I'm working with are so fantastic and diverse and interesting and funny. They work hard and even after being together all day long they still want to chill together. We have so much planned for the next six weeks: Alcatraz, Napa, Great America, thrift stores, the Golden Gate Park, Chinatown, the Castro...so much to do. I'm going to see my dad on Monday, going back to the neighborhood of my childhood home. I have to be honest, I've spent the last few days preparing myself for a pretty bad situation. My dad got very sick in November and apparently he almost died. I haven't seen him in almost three years, but I'm afraid of what I'm going to see. I wish someone could be there to hold my hand, but I don't have anyone in my life to fill that position. Some of these things have been so hard to deal with, but I'm fortunate that I have a job, that I have a family and than I'm making friends. Zara and I took a day to be San Fran tourists, driving down the windiest road in the city (Lombard, google it and watch the video, it's cool!), taking in the view from Russian Hill, walking down the Haight, eating breakfast on Fillmore and walking down such steep hills, they built stairs into the sidewalks. Amazing. The city is full of fantastic food and hippies. It's a completely different vibe than LA. In LA all of the people at my grocery store look like they were cast as cashiers and they all have professional head shots. Here they are hairy, hippie and unattractive. The weather is crazy, cold and clammy, but it can turn sunny and crisp within moments. I'm still missing the ex, we're still corresponding. For some reason it's hard for us both to let go. Part of me wishes he could fly out here and we can cure each other's lonliness, but it would probably turn out disastrous. I've taken a year off from having a relationship and I think I'm ready for one. I'm in this city for a brief amount of time and then it's off to NYC and finally Chicago and then I'm back in the city I love: LA. I'm trying to savor every moment that I'm having because I know this is a wonderful adventure.
My list lately:

Lady Antebellum "Need You Now"
Kevin Rudolf "I made it"
Sad Brad Smith "Help Yourself"
Spoon "I Turn my Camera on"
Robin Thicke "Sex Therapy"
OneRepublic "All the Right Moves"
Kris Allen "Live Like We're Dying"
Alicia Keyes "Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart"
Ingrid Michaelson "Maybe"